Eternal Petal

I have became an ELF for this past 2 years. This is a record. I never become a fan of someone or some group for that long periode before. I don’t know exactly when I become an ELF, but for petal, I know it’s July 10th, 2009. I have to say that I really proud of my self to become very loyal when it comes to super junior. I love them all, from leeteuk to kyuhyun. But still, my ultimate bias is kim heechul. From that day. Until this second.

After he left, it’s like there is a hole in my heart. It’s like an empty space that it used to fill everything about him. I know it’s kinda exagerrated. But it’s the truth. You’ll know how it feel when you become a fan of someone for more than 2 years, then suddenly he literally gone. Also in this case, heechul’s gone was really sudden. He told us 10 days before his left. I didn’t prepare it at all. I can say that 10 days is the most fearful, sad, and moodless days for me.

When September 1th came, I promise my self and to him for not cry. His decision is really brave, so I must be brave too to let him go for 2 years. I know 2 years is really a long time. I wonder if I am still alive when he come out from army. Can I meet him again when he finish his duty? That fact about I can’t meet him in SS4 is hurt me for sure.

For now, I’ll just keep waiting him. I’m so sorry I become a broken ELF now. I know heechul must be mad at me. But I still love the other members. I just didn’t follow their progress or anything. I’ll just pray the best for them and heechul. I love them all. I love heechul.