Books

I don't know. I guess my big theme for this holiday for me is: Books. or novels. or E-Books.
anyway, I only have spent my 2 weeks of holiday but I already read 4 novels. is it amazing? or me exaggerating?
I think I'm proud of myself cause novels which I read are not a English-teenlit-novels that I usually read. however, it's some kind of analyze able novels? *eerrggh what the hell am I trying to say here*
ok so, so far I've read "Naked Pueblo" and "On The Road" for my tematis class. it's so good especially On The Road, and I just can't wait to watch the adapted movie. *Kristen Stewart  plays as Marylou and I excited like hell*
the other two books are "The Fault in Our Stars" by John Green which is extremely goooood omg I cried a river when *ehem spoiler* Augustus dead :""""""( I think I'm gonna write a book review about it. the fourth which I'm currently reading is "The Perks of Being a Wallflower." I knew this novel because they brought it into a movie which is Emma Watson and Logan Lerman play. They said the book is extremely good so searched it everywhereeee *well, not literally everywhere* but they didn't have it. it's an old book they said. but don't worry cause I already have the e-book!!! hope I can finish it in one night. I can picture Emma Watson plays Sam easily. that character is so Emma. can't wait for the movie!

p.s: I have to read "Love in a Fallen City" for my tematis class and make an essay for next Tuesday, and here I am reading other novels and making a post in my blog. well, this is holiday after all.

Dreams

many people said that Pisces is the most imaginative people than any zodiac signs. I agree. I know that everyone must have their own wild imagination, not only Pisces. But one thing that I want to ask. Is Pisces the only people who live in their imagination. it's like having two worlds. because that is exactly what happen to me.
I live in two world since little kid. and it become real and real day by day. actually I'm a little shy to spill out what my another world is. of course my main world is......yea real world. where Larissa Adinda lives. where she is just a youth who become a college students. having tons of friends who she loves. having dreams.
and my another world is......just-larissas-perfect-world. where all my dreams come true and everything that I want is there.
I cannot leave that world, you know. it's like I need it when my life in the 'real world' is kind of mess up. Imagining I'm living in that 'perfect world' just make anything better. is it weird?
can I really make my 'real world' to become exactly like my perfect world? well I think the answer is no. leave it just for my imagination is enough. who knows if I really live there, it is not that perfect as I always imagine, right? hehehe
well, I'm just a youth who tremendously excited with life :)

p.s: recently I'm thinking to become a writer, should I?

Travel Story: Bangkok, Thailand.

haaaaayyyyy!!! It has been a long time since I posted travel stories. so, now I'm back with another travel story. which is Bangkok. actually, I went to Bangkok last year. after I went to Kuala Lumpur. fortunately I still remember some of the memories I had there. I stayed there only for three days guys -___- sadly. it was definitely NOT ENOUGH!!! Gosh Bangkok is so big and I only had 3 three days -__- Bangkok is absolutely a beautiful city. I love it! from three countries I have visited, Bangkok is the one which I definitely will go there again someday.

Hunger Games

Been awhile since the last time I wrote book review. Well after some thoughts, I think all my book/movie reviews are not actually a review, right? hahaha It's like my 'thought' about the story. Ok, so let's start this so-called-book-review.

I finish this book right after I watched the movies. In fact, I knew this novel since a loooong time ago but I didn't know that this novel is great. So it's like I ignored this. After I had known that this book turned into a movie, I was like O.O *oh God what have I done?* hahahaha I should have read this amazing novel earlier.

anyway, I read this novel like months ago but I just made the review now -___- *stupid me!*

An Essay for a Song for a Barbarian Reed Pipe

this is my essay for my final exam in 4th semester. I used Psychoanalysis approach to analyze this story, titled  "A Song for a Barbarian Reed Pipe". I only analyze almost-the-end of the story. How is the dynamic between id, ego, and superego of the narrator? hope this is can help. forgive me for the grammar error. please give me as source if you want use my thought.

Pressure Awakes Unconsciousness

            At least there must be one person who can control someone’s identity. It is like  become the role model of that person. In this story, A Song for A Barbarian Reed Pipe, the narrator’s role model or someone who control her is her mother, whether the narrator like it or not. The mother intentionally do it. She tells her daughter to do this and that, and saying that what she said is right, although the narrator doubt it. Their family backgroud as the first generation of Chinese family which become immigrants to America makes them still very influenced by their culture in China, especially the mother. She always tells the narrator what is right or wrong according to Chinese culture. However, sometimes the things that she told does not make sense and does not suit with American culture at all, like when the mother ordered her to ask for candies to the drug store. Eventhough she does not want to do it, but she must according to her mother. The narrator tells the druggist about her mother, “my mother said you have to give us candy. She said that is the way Chinese to do it” (Kingston, p. 170). She did whatever her mother told when she was a child. When she can think like an adult and know what is right or wrong by herself, she starts to become someone who can pour out her own thought and opinion. However, her mother keeps do that until she decide to tell her mother about her “true” self through a list she made. Massive pressure by her mother makes narrator’s unconsciousness release her pleasure.

Second Year

I can't believe my sophomore year is already over. can you believe this? I've survived my half way on college. half way to go before I can graduate. Time's sure gone really fast and I didn't realize it. My fourth semester have finished just 3 days ago. I finished all my final exams, actually I'm impressed with myself hahaha. though my score haven't out. and please I don't want to know it yet. not ready.

but the thing is, I started to think if I was ready to face my last two years in college, because it sure is gonna be super massive hard. my last final exams, whether it's sit-in-exam or take home exam, were hell for me. and it was just my second year and 4th semester. I wonder what is waiting me in the future. 

If someone asks me is college fun or hell, I can't decide. it's like I'm in the middle of heaven and hell. you know, being in college is super fun. we're considered as adults and have our own responsibilities. not like in school that our parents ask me to study, or ask me if I have homework. it is like our parents believe that we can walk in our own now, they just support us from behind, not lead in the front us again like before. the environment which also really different, like friends and lecturers. and of course the subject also really different. the freedom we got both from house and college should we take with many consideration and full of responsibility. that's why, those "responsible" tag is a great burden to us and make college somehow like hell hahaha. I didn't mean to scare anyone who haven't enter college. no. I just shared my opinion of college which everyone should know that it is not all about freedom, freedom, and freedom. it is taken with a great responsibility. you must become a wise person to survive. do not waste all the trust that have given to you. everyone become older, but wise, is a choice.

Difficulty level: College

I never thought live in college life will be this hard. high school might be boring for me back then. really. I always wanted to go to college and become an adult. now I regret it. I want my carefree life back. my wonderful school experience. I could studied whenever I want. I could did my homework at school before class begin. I could played with my friends every-fucking-day after school ended. and now? I can't even breath freely. It is so hard I can barely breath one second, then suddenly assignments come. I can barely sleep one minute, suddenly final exams come. but don't get me wrong. I love college. really. it is like love-hate relationship. I love all my subjects. No exceptions. but somehow the assignments are kind of ...... I don't know how I still alive now. my fourth semester is just 4 days to go. I just finished my last paper for this semester and I finally can breath at least one day, before my English 4 final exam attack next week. 2012 class will soon enter this college life. once I stalked them on twitter, and I realize how innocent they are. untouched and undamaged by this cruel world named education. welcome my dearest junior. really, enjoy your last 3 months before enter this hell. my two years experience in this world was really hard. two more years to go. if I could passed those last 2 years, why I cannot pass the next two years, then? all hail college students!!